I haven't posted in a million years, but my mind has been working. I think about people I love all the time, but I lack the ability to sit still long enough to put those thoughts on paper (so to speak... who uses paper?). I was pleased when my mind started to drift toward an old friend... I felt absolutely compelled to tell her about it.
Janice Colvin, do you know that I think about you all the time? I bet you don't. I have started to send you messages on Facebook about 5 times now and somehow I always get distracted by the kids or by life and I have yet to even let you know that I am planning to get back in touch with you... and at this rate I never will, will I?
If you dont' know Janice, I wish you did. So much time has passed since she has been a day-to-day part of my life, and I do miss those days. Janice is a bright spot. She is a ray of sunshine. She is walking laughter and all kinds of warmth. When I think of her I smile... the ear-to-ear kind of smile that not everyone gives you. I have had times with Janice when my face hurt from laughing, and I have had a time with her when I cried my eyes out.
I know so little about her life right now. I do feel like a bad friend so much of the time. So much of the day I spend doing my own thing and getting lost in the details of the day that, while my mind drifts over fond memories of people I love, I never spare the seconds to simply reach out and tell them.
So Janice, I miss your laugh. I miss your sense of humor and the way you used to brighten my day when I saw you. And once when I didn't know who to turn to for support over a break-up that seemed, at that point, to be the end of the world, you listened to me. I hope you know I would always be there for you, even if I'm not the best at reaching out.
I love you, and I hope you're well.