Friday, July 8, 2011

Take Me To Your Leader

There are days that I feel like an alien that's come from outer space, landed on this planet and is wandering around looking at all the strange beings I'm surrounded by.  There's no one like me.  No one knows what's in my heart. I look at everyone and wonder what they're thinking when they look at me... how they judge me when I say I'm a single mother of 4.  No one knows the pang I feel when I say I'm divorced.  No one understands that although I feel relief about being on my own now, away from the pain and difficulty of my first marriage, how odd and surreal it seems to say that my husband left me. I know some of it is in my head, but I also know, by the look on peoples faces, that it's not ALL in my head.  I wouldn't say I feel alone, I have amazing support from family and friends.  I have the most wonderful and beautiful children that have ever existed.  I have love again.  I have a strong relationship with God.  I have more now than ever before. 

I know that I am not (by any stretch of the imagination) the only person that has ever been divorced.  I know that I am not the only one that has suffered a heart break.  I know that I am not the only single mother, I even know and admire some myself... but sometimes I feel like I am the only one of my species.

Then I met someone through a friend and all the sudden I felt like I had run into someone from my home planet.

Imagine being in Beijing, China and running into someone that grew up on the same street as you.  Unlikely?  YES.  Possible?  yes.

Sometimes you don't have to know someone at all for them to touch your life.  My lovely friend Becky
had told me she has a close friend who, coincidentally, lives in the same area that I do.  She said we had some similarities.  She said I would love her.  She was right:)

All of the sudden I don't feel like the only alien.  So Cass, I'm sorry you're from my planet... but meeting you and seeing your absolutely perfect (and all-together sassy) daughter was an absolute joy.  Your smile, your determination, your success (as I see it), your struggle... I am in awe of you.  I haven't stopped thinking of you since we met and I hope to meet again soon.